Hey guys, this is my second blog about my deep passion for this amazing band.
As I said in the first one, I wanted to see Tokio Hotel live in Milan on October 30, 2007 and unluckily I couldn’t, but just a month ago there already was a new tour and this time my parents and especially my daddy could take me, so on November 28, 2007 I bought tickets for Bologna, the date had to be March 26, 2008. Why I wrote “had to be”, well… I think this is one of the most saddest moments I had in my whole life and this isn’t definitely a reaction of a baby girl but of a girl who really love someone else and is really worried about. But I would like to explain everything in order…
I was really really excited about that day, I was literally counting the days, finally I could see them in a little time after have become a fan that I couldn’t believe it!
Every time I read March 26, 2008 I jumped and a huge smile appeared on my face but soon that smile turned into a long crying and an infinite sadness.
A few of days before Bologna date, Bill started to feeling not good and already in Marseille, on March 14, he already hadn’t voice anymore and the last part of the concert was totally sung by the crowd.
Bill is so professional and he wanted have rehearsals as well in Lisbon on March 16, but before the concert started he has been transported with an extreme urgency in a hospital in Germany because the situation was really bad. The venue was full of people but instead to rocking on the stage, Tom, Georg and Gustav appeared on with an interpreter, Tom explained the situation: Bill was really really sick and he was already on a helicopter toward Germany, it has to be operated immediately.
In those moments I really didn’t know, I was so worried and I hope everything turned in better… I hoped my date was save, but I clearly knew it the situation couldn’t be saved in just a few days and it was something of really bad.
I had to leave on Wednesday and on Saturday I’ve read the news also Bologna concert and all the other dates of the tour were deleted. I really can remember in a clear way that moment. I was in front of the pc and in a Tokio Hotel’s website tag, there was written in red: “All Tokio Hotel concerts, includes the Italian dates are deleted because of Bill’s cyst at vocal cords”. For the first 30 seconds my brain froze then like a robot I stand up and I went to my mom that was in bathroom, I can still remember the hour, it was 10pm, she saw my absent face, it seemed I already have seen a ghost and she asked me: “What’s happened?” and I could talk, she repeated me the question a few times and I just could say: “Bill” and then I started to cry.
My mom read the news on the screen and she was so worried too, my dad came in my room and saw me crying, he embraced me so tight and I cried all my tears. I couldn’t stop! My dad kept me between his arms until midnight/midnight and half then he laid me in bed and I continued to cry… I wanted to listen Bill’s voice and I heard some TH’s in my mp3 player, of course I chose shuffle mode and you couldn’t believe if I said the mp3 player chose the saddest ones, seriously!
I really don’t know when I fell asleep, the morning later was Easter Sunday, for just an instant I thought it was only a bad nightmare, but unluckily it wasn’t and when my mom woke me up, tears started to fall again. That day I bought two magazines and inside there were Tokio Hotel stuff and two posters, those two posters still are fixed in my room and they are so special for me and I think I will never remove them from my room. My mom got me a little stuffed mouse and I called him Tom.
For the whole day I was absent, I had some members of my family, but I didn’t talk, I didn’t eat, I’ve been the whole day in my room. My friend Luca was to his uncle’s home for celebrate Easter and when I texted him about this situation he came back home and we chatted for the whole day because he wanted leave me alone. I really appreciated this and I will always be glad to him. I constantly listen Tokio Hotel’s songs and I prayed for Bill.
The most traumatic day was the concert day, when my friends saw me at school they were shocked and immediately tons of questions started to arrive and I only said: “Bill is sick, he has to operated” and then I repeated for the whole day “I shouldn’t to be there! I should to be at Tokio Hotel concert!”
What I hate the most was when my best friend said me: “Please, Irene. Now, stop it!” I really didn’t expect this reaction to her since few days before she called me saying: “No problem, everything is going ok and if they delete Bologna concert, I take you in Lubiana (Slovenia) for that concert!”…. maybe hurt me the most what she said more than the whole situation.
The straw that broke the camel’s back has been when her boyfriend asked me if Bill was dead with the operation, I was really really angry and luckily my best friend at the time, replied him back saying he was stupid and he had to shut up otherwise I could punch his face, my friends blocked me, but I was so close to do it!
But as I always say, after the storm there always is the rainbow, luckily Bill’s operation has gone really good and after rehab he come back to talk and sing again and finally the great news: a new tour in Summer and the Bologna tickets were available for Modena date, on July 11.
First interview and video message after Bill's operation
(English translation in the description box of the videos)
I was freaking happy finally I could see them and see my lovely angel.
In that same period I knew a girl, Giada, who was a TH's fan too as her sister, Sara... I was so happy because I could share with other people my passion and love... we talked a lot about them and stuff like that, and also she went to Modena with her sister, but they went there a day before, for to be in front row... I couldn't. Because my dad couldn't have the permission from the work, so we went in Modena the same day of the concert (Modena is not so far to Trieste, something like 4 hours)...
I was already organized with Giada and her sister, because searching in internet about infos and news of TH, I found that there were a sort of tickets for the front row and a person could take 3 tickets, so I said to Giada to take 3 tickets or special pass how you prefer, for my dad, my friend Selene and me so we could stay all together...
Then the plans changed and those tickets weren't available anymore... Who arrived before stayed in front row, the others stayed after another barrier... I was really sad! But I didn't despair... the happiness for to see them after such a long time was more strong...
But there were another problem... On July 6th, TH performed in Rome, and it was a total chaos, no tickets control, and the people entered in the hippodrome (TH performed at Ippodromo Cappanelle) just like horses and the security didn't exist... Plus, the day before the concert, fans did a total chaos who the band had to delete the date, and I was despair if happened with Modena too... So I lived stressing days before the concert...
At 7am of July 11th, 2008, I leaved my city for Modena. (I have to say I didn't eat nothing in the morning, my stomach was closed and adrenaline was all around my body, but in the car, I ate a lot of chips and popcorn with my friend Selene, so I wasn't completely empty xD)
At midday finally we arrive in Modena, before we go in the hotel for put our stuff and then we go at Parco Novi Sad, concert’s location, a really huge place (now it's a parking). The concert was an open air, always loved them! It was damn hot, there! I know what mean live in a city with a lot of humidity but Modena beated Trieste. A lot of people were already there... The atmosphere was really good (the first and the last time I saw an atmosphere like that in a TH concert or event), a lot of kiosks were all around the venue and I took advantage and I bought a pillow with TH's photo during EMA's 07 and a tshirt with SCREAM cover...
It was something like 1pm and TH started the sound-check, I could listen the beat of Gustav's drum, the riff of Tom's guitar and Bill's voice. In that moment I started to cry and I continued to repeat to my mom: "Mom! It's Bill! It's Bill!!! He's singing!!!" and I jumped and my mom started to cry too because she saw me damn happy. It's for that reason I have a particular connection with 1000 Meere, this is the song I listened to sing by Bill with my ears after his operation. They also checked Break Away and Final Day.
Luckily the organization did enter the people a lot before what they said, and at 1:45am I was inside the venue, I was soooooo happy to be there and I was happy to be near enough, I saw all the huge stage and I was just on the barrier who separated the part where stayed the people who came the day before and the people who came the same day. It was so perfect for my eyes! And I was happy! (Now I have to say, I'm happy only if I am in front row xD well, now the things are different and I know all the stuff that happen during a concert, so I'm psychologically prepared to everything)
And from that moment the time seemed was never passing! It was hard, really really hard, because it was so hot and so humid, we started to open umbrellas and firemen threw water with the pump for refresh us, but all this wasn't so length because it was terribly hot...
I knew a couple of sweet girls (and also in this case I can say: first and last time) and as happened for the other concerts, I was the older one (I was 17 years and half there)...
The sun was burning and I saw a lot of girls faint and I continued to repeat to myself: "I'm the next one! I'm the next one!", I still have a peach tea in my bag, it was hot too, but my body needed of sugar and so I drank it in an only one gulp. Then I felt me better and I was ready to enjoy the concert.
First of Tokio Hotel concert, there was another band, an Italian band, called LOST who I hate them because in my opinion they didn't know what music is and they don't know play music... the most of their first songs were covers something like "SexyBack" of Justin Timberlake and "Backstreet's Back" of BSB, who I listened when I was 6 years old and all the girls screamed so loud and I said: "Oh God! Now I understand, you are so young, I feel me really old! I was 6 when this song played on the radios and it was of BSB, but maybe you weren't still born!". I hate them because they were totally rude, especially the singer, Walter, they were in my same hotel, I found them in the breakfast room with me and the other people who stayed in the hotel, and my mom asked an autograph and also if I could to shoot a picture to all of them while they were having breakfast and he said: "No, Miss. We have to having breakfast!" in a bad way. F**k you!
By the way, coming back to most important thing: Tokio Hotel arrived on stage in a little bit late, at 9:33pm (sometimes I'm so scared how many details I remember about those moments) and started the chaos.
I couldn't believe to live that moment, to be there and to see the band, to see with my eyes my angel who he was well again, and he was singing for me! In those moments, all the other 17,999 people didn't exist, but only the band and me!
I started to cry and to scream Bill's name so loud!
A girl who never saw before, maybe she passed the other one and arrived where I was, embrace me and kiss me on the cheek, really I don't know who she is because I didn't ask her name or nothing... but she has been so cute! She was like an angel, seriously!
She also helped me to raise the board I made for Bill & Tom for In Die Nacht, it was a really cool board and it was written: "Bill und Tom, Zwei Sterne In Die Nacht", (two stars in the night) we raised it before they started to play this magic song in a really closed moment. Bill was up and was looking the immense crowd, he was so proud to be there (also in Caught On Camera DVD he will say it, and all the band too. Tokio Hotel loved Modena concert!)... he looked to his left, where I was with the board and he saw it and smiled and put his hands on his heart, I was sooooooooo happy, oh Lordy! I have shiver only to remember that moment. The girl who helped me started to jump and embraced me again and she said me: "He saw it! He saw it!" and I was crying, I was speechless!
One of the moment I loved most was during "Live Every Second", unluckily they didn't play German version, so when Bill arrived on the catwalk and left the crowd to sing: "Liveeeeeeeeee Every Seeeeeeecond!" after him, all of us started to sing: "Leeeeeeeb' Die Sekuuuuuuuuuunde" in German and he was so cute, he was like: "WTF?" xD
Tokio Hotel performed for over 2 hours, everything was amazing, the concert was half in German and half in English, and doesn't matter if during "Geh" Tom's guitar broke, it's something that happen during live concert and it's a part of them, we screamed a lot for Tom as to say: "Don't worry, it's all ok! You rock!"
Around midnight, the concert was finished. I couldn't believe to have waited so much and it was all finished!
I was crying, I think to have cried for all the two hours and half of concert, and even now I'm thinking where I found all that water, because I sweated for the whole day!
Then I went to my dad, who wasn't with me, but it was in another part and filmed all the show, I'm so glad of him! He did a great work! I arrived to my dad and to Selene (because she preferred to stay with him because until the day before she had flu and nosebleed) and in tears I embrace him and continued to cry. A lot of girls looked me in a bad way (typical) and they said: "Oh, she's crying!" and I said: "What? What the hell? I'm crying because I'm happy! Because I can't believe what I've seen. I've just seen my reason of life!"
I got dirty my dad’s tee with my makeup, but it's something that it's part of TH's ritual concerts, after the show I go to my dad, I embrace him and I cry so much and I get dirty his tee (happened in Padova, last year too) and if he's not with me, I call him (and my mom too) at the phone and I cry as well.
When the people was going out the venue, I had to threw on stage some things for the guys, in the hope to see them wearing something I bought for them (as a cap for Tom and a bracelet for Bill that I have it too, with our names on)... and then my dad brought me a Bill's tee, from the official TH's store.
When we went out the venue and went in the car, TH's cars passed in front of us and I was: "Oh My God!", we came back on the hotel and finally I could to go in the bathroom.
It was the first time I stayed up something like 12 hours and I didn't go at the toilet for 15 hours.
It's something I repeated several times from that moment, but I'm always happy to do it, because it's not a weight for me, I do it because I want it! Because I know what happen after all of that!
It was an awesome experience, I would to live it again!
Definitely this has been the most exciting moment of 2008 for me that I lived and shared with Tokio Hotel!
MY TOP 5 TOKIO HOTEL’S FAVORITE MOMENT OF 2008:
-Definitely one moment has to be dedicated to Buzznet. The lovely Bree had the pleasure to interview the band when they have been in US for their promotional tour. I really love this interview, it’s so funny!
-Comet 2008 winning: Tokio Hotel won four Comet Awards that year, and I was freaking happy!
-Bill’s Kart Revenge: I really love this TH TV Episode, it’s one of my favorite, and I really love how Bill drives the go-kart hahahah you have to watch the video for understand my hilarity XD and also listen the talk between Tom and Bill after the race hahahah
-1000 Meere Performance @ NRJ Awards, it’s not so much about the performance, but about the song itself, since as I wrote before, I really love it and I’m so closed to it! The lyrics are fucking beautiful and I’ve been so glad to have listened it with my ears in Modena
-EMA’s 2008 message for a fan: this is literally one of the funniest video ever, I laugh a lot until tears every time I watch it, please, if you didn’t do it yet, do it now! It’s HILARIOUS XD the whole video is so cool but definitely check out at 2:00, it’s the part I was talking about!