I suppose I haven't written a personal post in a while, and a lot of stuff has been going on in my life and I really wanted to share it with all of you. Ever since I was young I have been writing my diary online, remember when Xanga was hot? Yeah I literally went ham on that blog, thank god I deleted mine, I don't even know WHAT I wrote on there.
Anyway, Josh is moving to LA tomorrow! I can barely believe it, the last couple weeks have been really stressful, and crazy. Josh found out he got a job at APA agency and they wanted him to move out in 2 weeks. Needless to say it was a really hard decision to make because our family is here, our lease isn't up yet and I won't be able to go out to LA until the end of August. Moving across country is a huge deal when all our family and friends are on the East Coast. I know this is the right thing for Josh to do because it will all work out for the future and I know he is going to do very well. He is driving out across country tomorrow with his Dad, and I am heading to LA on Tuesday to help him settle in.
I feel like the next couple months are going to be really hard for me. I am never with out Josh, we have lived together for 2 years and have been together for 6 years! I mean I guess a couple months without him won't kill me, but it will be a difficult change in events.
I am happy that throughout that time I will be keeping myself very busy and traveling alot. This Memorial Day Weekend I am supposed to be going to Canada with my sister and Dad, then Tuesday I am leaving for LA for a week. After that I am going to Bonnaroo for a week, and I am excited because Josh is meeting me down there. But not excited to say goodbye to him at the Nashville Airport, because I don't know when the next time I will see him is.
In mid July I am going on a family cruise for a week, so that will occupy my mind for a while, after that I have the rest of July-August to live with out Josh. I think it is going to be really hard, but once I am out in LA I think I will do great things. The hardest part will be leaving my sisters because as you know they are my best friends. I know that I can't live without them, they are my everything. Yesterday I got a tattoo for Meg & Jill. The two lines symbolize that no matter were we go in life we will always be united forever.
I want everyone to be happy, but how to make yourself happy without making someone else upset? I really want to live, and live for now. I know that we will be in LA for only a year or 2. I am young and I have time to move around and experience things. I know that being there will help my career. I am just scared to leave everyone. But I know in my heart of hearts that I can never accomplish the things I want to in Bethlehem.
So I guess the whole point of this blog would be to ask you all for advice. Have you ever had to move somewhere far from your family, your best friends? Move somewhere to help your career?
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